What am I really looking for

So i woke up early this morning, couldn't sleep to tell the truth, i was kinda up all night, tossing and turning in my bed. I watched fresh prince reruns. I went to church today, i went to Jesus house Baltimore. You know that church makes me comitt sin, anytime i drive up there, i just wacth people, and i am not really paying attention to what the pastor is saying, the truth is i cant stand that man, and i cant stand the way those rubber heads follow him like he is the One true God. What the hell, anyway, i stayed for about 30 minutes and left. Hiss, waste of a good sunday morning. I have no idea what i was looking for there. Same way the other one is DC was saying he was not happy because he did not get the Bentley he wanted for his birthday, but the church gave him a new Benz already paid for. Why does a pastor need a Bentley, I think i need to trade in my Jetta, for a job as a pastor of Renewed Christian church of Nigeria. Form my own church and have rubber heads pay my bills, and buy me Bentleys. Fuckin retards....and all of you reading this....i dont need prayers, i pray for me...so does my brother, sister, parents and grandmother, all i need is judgemental people to stop judging me and cleaning up their lifes first....hiss, i need a nap!!